Chapter 6



Finding Venus - A Musical Thriller

I
'm not exactly sure why it took me so long to find the courage to share this particular story. It's not like I haven't shared at all, but my sharing has mostly consisted of blippets of story and carefully selected soundbites to illustrate an emotional journey that has left many questions unanswered.

It has taken almost ten years to finish the process of writing this memoir, titled Finding Venus - Come Hell or High Waters, and sending it off to a publisher. The writing itself didn't take that long, but stilling the voices of fear and arriving at a point of feeling worthy of sharing took lots and lots of processing. It's funny how we do this - how we belittle the importance of our own journeys - how we put other people on pedestals - how we forget we are all important and that our lives matter.

Since I grew up as a child star and got ample validation for my performance, sharing myself in musical and theatrical ways have been much easier than sharing myself as a person. In many ways, I have hidden behind my artist image, carefully selecting the piecces that had "promotional value" for public display.

At this point in my career, all i care about is to

share my truth in ways that will empower and build bridges of love, tolerance and understanding. And, in order to do that, I need to be as real as I possibly can.

Finding Venus - Come Hell or High Waters is the true story of how I managed to recover and come back to life after the near death accident that left me with temporary brain damage, amnesia and enhanced psychic abilities. During this time, Stefanie Stroh, the only person I felt any kind of connection to after the accident, disappeared in the Nevada desert in the same area the notorious serial killer Tommy Lynn Sells operated. She was never found, but my desperate search for her was instrumental in bringing me back to a sense of Self and purpose.

This story has many layers: In addition to describing the transformational journey of healing from amnesia and post traumatic stress, it is also a testimonial to how I found my identity as a human being, how I dared to come out of the closet as a sexual being and how I managed to embrace life from a whole new perspective.

At this very moment, Finding Venus - Come Hell or High Waters is also being transformed into a 90-minute musical stage performance, and YOU are invited!